A part of me misses the freedom that came from being a haughty 20 year old with nothing to lose, where I can could just get online and espouse whatever the hell I damn pleased knowing that I would never have to deal with any consequences. It was cathartic. Unfortunately, I can't really do that anymore. I will be able to again...eventually, whenever I get my art good enough to be established and what not, but...for now...I've been instructed to keep my mouth relatively shut.

Anyway, within that vein, I have been a strange mood swing lately. Listening to a lot of sad country...but I'm not really sad. In fact, if anything, my regular emotional state in the last...couple of weeks? Anger. I've been pretty angry, and it's been only getting worse.

I suppose that's the regular progression of things though. It's because of my knowledge in psychology that I tend to not get involved with people, because I already know why they are fucked up. No one is a mystery to me anymore...I was depressed months ago, now I'm angry, hopefully this part doesn't last as long as the depressed part. Never thought that the death of a minor dream would take over a year to get over.

Well...I suppose we'll see at SDCC. If I'm going to reach a peak of anger...that's gonna be it. Don't ask me how I know. LOL I just do. Which is unfortunate since I'm totally geek-excited to be going this year non-professionally.

I know this is probably not making much sense to any of you, but whatever, it's cathartic. LOL.

I have to go do 2 hours of laundry now. I hope you all have a wonderful day! And don't worry...angry Sorah is a huge step above sad Sorah. Angry Sorah you can make laugh and turn her easily to the happy Sorah

-S